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Last night, a close personal friend (my first friend actually, I’d known him since we were four) committed suicide. He was a senior in highschool, a really intelligent and fun guy, took life as it came and made it fun, and he was going places. He was a bit misunderstood, though for the most part like everyone else, but he was an everyman and a wonderful person. But last night that life ended. He killed himself and while no one knows why, it is truly a shock. I could go on for hours and hours about the event, and the man, but I won’t because although I am honestly devastated by it,I experienced something that hit me as truly shocking today. It was the nonchalant attitudes of the people we grew up with, the “oh well, that sucks. So anyway…” of those who said they were his friends, the histrionic tears of those who never gave a good goddamn about him whe he was alive, and the fadist “oooh did you hear…” and “I heard this and this…” but most of all the jokes and the people who said things about how suicide is so cowardly and ignorant. My ID would like to take a moment to point a gun in every single one of their faces, see if they think it’s no big deal, see if they blow death off, see if they don’t stop their attention craving tears and admit their lie, see if they want to make one more shitheaded comment as they watch the muzzle flash. But in my heart, I love everyone too much and care about life to much to ever hurt anyone. Cobain had it right:”I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.” Regardless, I’ve lost my faith in humanity and all of you usless fucks. A beautiful life has been torn from our world and all you can say is “Oh well” Fuck you. Fuck every single one of you. Vomitare l’ anima. Fuck you.

Somehow, when I decided to start up the movement of Mysticism, I was overcome by the intensly incorrect belief that humans could exhibit selflessness and intelligence. What the fuck was I thinking. It’s become a fad in the area, and a fad in our other big area in new york. True, barely anyone even kniws about it, but I was suprised by the (roughly) 100 active members. I was suprised, and now I’m sickened. This group of people and - from what i’ve seen - all of you fucking assholes everywhere are nothing more than narcissistic, histrionic, self-gratifying, unintelligent, selfish, and utterly worthless cunts. I’m turning over the tables in the temple hall, Mysticism has been effectively disbanded and all of you who view this page for information should know that. So there you go: David is gone, dreams are gone, and this pissant little movement is gone with the measured worth of humanity. Ignore your islands of narcissistic ignorance, fuck you, die.

Sealed with a teardrop,

X

R.I.P David Zondlo 11/02/2011

             As we struggled to stay upright in our daily lives, the sun of a new day, that promise which we are always trying to catch up to, is endlessly racing around and coming up behind us again and again. And while, in a paralleled way, our goal is the same, we are older. We are run down from the battle of life; we are always one more day closer to death. It can be hard just to get up in the morning, much less fight a never-ending war with the complexities of the world as it is. So instead of straining ourselves in vain, if we are ever to be truly happy and free, we must return to the basic elements of living. Instead of letting ourselves fall into the stressful, brain-melting, toil all day/worry all night life that most of us experience, we must bring our selves back to the wonder of love, new life, and true peace.

In the words of F. Scott Fitzgerald, “We should all believe in the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It may elude us then, but that’s no matter. Tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther…” Because, one fine morning we will finally completely be there, and it will be beautiful. So I want you to think, think about how the world, your world, could be. Know that each day is a new begging, another chance to live more, laugh more and love more. To learn more about ourselves and others, and to push our soul’s boundaries to new, exhilarating heights.  I hope all of you can realize the truth behind this.

Who doesn’t want to experience utter peace, cooperation, and the boundlessness of true, unhindered freedom. Contemplate and meditate, form your ideas, and then do not delay in speaking out for what is right.

Just let the world melt away, and your mind fly free, take away earthly pains, all that’s left is irie. Live and love in \

                This is a call for awareness, an echoing cry of warning which I beg you to take heed of. If we are ever to retake our lives and freedom, the ones who are trying to destroy us MUST BE STOPPED. Forty years ago, many great men predicted the political take over that is happening RIGHT NOW. Our freedom, our humane rights are being attacked and torn apart by the power hungry villains seated in government positions around the world. Slowly, even the simplest of citizens are allowing greedy socialist values to take over our daily lives. Slowly, religions such as Islam and Jainism are amassing powers in their quest to conquer all other religions. Slowly, the political powers of the world are beginning to exact absolute and iron-fisted powers across the globe.  Slowly America, the country that is known as ‘the land of the free,’ is inanely falling into the ridiculous trap of radical politicism that the great minds of the aristocracy have predicted for a century (this is most accurately outlined in Orwell’s 1984). Soon people from all countries will be living in fear of their own governments, the ones they created to protect themselves. Even now there is a war raging over seas which is making no progress. For nine years our young men and women have been dying in the millions. For what? Politics? Whose politics? Our government creates the illusion that being in the military makes you strong, putting ideas in the heads of children that killing is good. All these baby burners are really doing is turning our youth into mindless killing machines. If I handed you a flamethrower and told you to burn down and orphanage, would you do it? Would you be able to live with the screams of the children, ringing in your ears for the rest of your lives? Your answer would be “Hell no.” But an army officer? “Sir, yes Sir!” It goes to show what war has done to us.

There is nothing glorious about war. Just like there is nothing glorious about murder. Since the beginning of time, and even now, our government and most others takes part in a campaign of flag waving that paints a heroic picture about the far removed wars that the average citizen knows so little about. While in actuality (as was so truly stated by Michael Franti and Spearhead), our war for oil is a war for The Beast, and the war on terror is a war on peace. (See Highschool Soldiers)

                It is time we stand up for our rights and the rights of all humanity. Before the bullshit our politicians are concocting in their evil minds really come into play. Before Big Brother becomes a reality. We must throw our bodies upon the gears and upon the wheels of this evil machine and we’ve got to make it stop. It is time for a new revolution, it is time to elevate our minds. Listen, think, wait, and then speak. Take up arms against the counter-freedom movement. Our government teaches us that we have to fight for our freedom, and yet they take our freedom away. Do not fall into their trap. They will be happy to see you, welcoming you with open arms, bidding you a welcome to the machine. We must rise up, stop talking and just do. Stop planning and just act. It is time to form a new counter cultural revolution. It is time to once again begin to elevate our thoughts and actions by turning on, tuning in, and dropping out. We must fight! Fight, before it is too late. Our government has failed; it is time to tear down the walls of the world’s sorry excuse for civilization and work together to build something great. Without letting petty things like religion, power, money, or personal belief get in the way. Contemplate and meditate, form your ideas, and then do not delay in speaking out for what is right.

Fight the power, fight The Man, fight the destruction of humanity and morality.

                What is infinity? What is eternity? Is it simply a very human expression of an incomprehensible amount, an unknown amount? Or is it the proposed *, that never ending line? Is there really the fabled stretching *, that endlessly pointing arrow which has no discernible beginning and no predictable end? How can we as humans –with our unexorcisably mathematically driven minds- even begin to understand or make sense of this concept which begets and concludes all concepts? How can we, as simple as we are, even try to wrap our brains around an ever-evolving and never-ending theory which maps the future and fate of every atom that make up that which is space? They say the universe is infinite; so if it is, what is on the other side of our reaches? If there is a never ending amount of stars, planets, and solar systems out there, how many more planets are there like our earth? (See “On The Infinite Universe Theory”) The religious believe that once you die, you live on in the afterlife for eternity. How can it come to pass that there are places where seconds are naught and years are less. How can our thoughts and souls be content with perpetual placid existence?

                Limitless …This is another of the words that mean “never-ending.” And though we use it almost every day, we do not realize the full extent of the power behind it. We are always told that the expansion of our world and technologies is limitless, but already we see machines doing things for us that people living a few centuries ago couldn’t have dreamed of. What will happen when we “expand” so much to the point where machines can even think for us? Will the human mind become obsolete? Will what is considered life morph into a perpetual state of non-activity because there is “no need” to do anything?

                Psychologists say that the power of the brain is limitless. They say the mind can continue to expand infinitely. So, assuming this is true, wouldn’t it be possible to expand your mind into the 4^th dimension? After filling your brain with, and fully understanding, all discernible notions of x d, y d, and z d; would it not be possible to enter t ? After focusing on the succinct difference between the 3 spacial dimensions, if the concept of infinity really exists, we should be able to perceive the clarity of true time. And see, as well as understand, beyond what any man has before.

                But even as we hear this, and try to fit this into our schema of everyday life, it seems impossible. We think it seems ludicrous to assume that we can perceive beyond the perceivable. So, as in every philosophical question, we are left back where we started, to make our own assumptions. We must ask ourselves; can what we call infinity be quantified, or is it truly a perpetual power with no boundaries and no end?

                Call me a romantic but I think about love a lot. We use the word a lot, as does the media, and over the years it seems to have lost its meaning. But anyone who has felt that true uplifting feeling when looking into a soul mates eyes, or sharing an intimate laugh with a true friend, or felt the warmth in a family members arms knows what I am talking about when I say “love.” But what is love, and what is true love? To me, love comes to you but true love doesn’t. You fall in love many times in your life, just because it doesn’t “work out” or the two people fall apart doesn’t mean it wasn’t love. “True” love is that rare thing that you wait a life time for. But it isn’t something that just happens when you meet the right person, you make true love out of love.

True love starts out as passionate love, that physical and mental attraction that initially excites you and brings you together. Bitter rejected lovers would call this lust, but it really isn’t. It may be slightly shallow and it is the stage that most break ups happen in but it is love nonetheless. After that initial stage of passionate love, compassionate love is added on top. This is where you learn to truly care about the person and begin to feel as though they are truly a part of your lives. After compassionate love comes companionate love. This is that sense that the person is truly your best friend and that you could spend your entire life with them. Finally, the pyramid built out of all the other stages of love comes to pass and the ultimate love arises; consummate love. This is where you are not only attracted and obsessed with the person, but you love their mind and the little things about them, you know they are your best friend, and you know that if the opportunity arose that you would die for them.

It takes work and patience to reach this stage of consummate true love; it is not just handed to you when you fall in love with a certain person. You fall in love and it progresses to something else much greater over time.  Some people don’t believe that this kind of love really exists, but these are the people who maybe have found initial love, but not someone to work at it with them. Sometimes you might fall in love with someone who doesn’t love you, or pretends to love you, or who isn’t ready for the kind of commitment you are after. But that doesn’t mean that there isn’t someone out there for you. You just need to find someone who sees the beauty in everything you do, in the way you move, in the way you think and speak. When you find the right person the world is brighter and you always feel like singing just remember that it takes mutual work, and mutual love.

You may not know immediately when you find the right person, but when you do know, you know. Don’t try to convince yourself that He or She is right for you if you don’t feel it down in your heart. If they can’t make you laugh, awaken you with a smile, make it so that you can’t help but smile. If they can’t hold you up, and make you feel like you are on top of the world, even in your darkest hour. Then they aren’t your true love.

True love is out there, it’s just a matter of finding it. And then, most importantly, perusing it at all costs, forever and ever, no matter what.

It has been said that human nature is to turn away from problems, but it is also true that modern human nature is to turn blame away from ourselves. Human beings are solely responsible for the fall of our environment and race. It is the easy thing for us to blame the rise of technology and ideology for these problems, and while it is in a very big way, we are the ones who created these so therefore we are the ones who create our own destruction.

                Although the technology and wealth which we amass may seem to be important and helpful in our narrow human perspective, these things are the basis of power and therefore the most corruptive substances on the planet. It all starts with temptation. Kids are propagandized from an early age to want money, and things; and therefore power. Over time this mentality has spread to nearly every household and therefore nearly every child and further, throughout our race. The wish to amass earthly “things” has become the meaning of life for our plastic universe. But as stated before we cannot blame the ideas and monetarily based goods, for we are the ones that come up with these temptations. And worse still, we are the ones that succumb to it.

                Isn’t it sad to think of the damage we have done already? Isn’t it scary to think of the havoc we have wrought, the instruments of terror, war and death we have created and even used? Isn’t it scary to know that because of our technology, we hold the power to destroy earth, and life? But on top of all that, isn’t it scariest to know that we are the ones who must fix it all?

                So far I have been referring to the physical damage that we are orchestrating due to our many faults, but this is only the beginning of the problem. Much more important is the spiritual aspect of our moral defecations. More and more, every day of our lives, moral implications take a backseat in our lives. Our cultures have been brainwashed so much, that right and wrong is based government issued laws. We are beleaguered with the limitations we have put on our collective muse. We try so hard to fall in to the conformity of everyday life, and even those who think they are so “post-modern” or “non-conformist” are just conforming to the ideas of anti-society. We are so limited, that we try to make everyone “just like us.”

                More and more humans turn away from nature and try to make things into a “new way.” But nature is nature for a reason; it is natural. Meaning that just because for an instant it seems like we can control fate, we are on a short leash that fights against us and in the end will destroy us if we keep fighting it. In case nobody has noticed, fighting nature hasn’t made anyone happy. In fact humans keep falling deeper and deeper into a sense of microscopy, which is why we keep making new things to try to make us happy. No one seems to realize that things are just getting worse. No one seems to realize that we aren’t doing anything but limiting ourselves. The Vedas say “Man has subjected himself to thousands of self-inflicted bondages. Peace comes to a man who lives by the true, eternal laws of nature.” If we were all to follow this idea, the world would be a happy, wholesome, collectively unified and peaceful place.

                Love and war. War and peace. Peace and divinity. Divinity and love. Love and war. War and peace. Peace and divinity. Divinity and love. Love and war. They are all inextricably related. Love is the opposite of war and war is the opposite of peace. We know divinity through peace and divinity begets love. It is a cycle because one cannot exist without the others. It is weird how everything has an opposite, and weirder how the opposites can’t exist without one another. For instance; if there were never wars, we wouldn’t know we had peace because we never would have experienced the opposite. Everything in life is cosmically related.

Have you ever thought about how said digital communication is? It conveys no human warmth, no emotion. It makes the space and time between the two people incredibly, and formidably apparent. Every word conveyed by these devices has a cold edge that prevents the recipient from truly ascertaining the feeling behind the thought. More and more we create these devices that destroy the bridges of human communication, and that is exactly where the next generations are going. Our race inevitably heads toward an inability to even express emotion. Eventually there will be no need for humans to think. And the ones that dare to will be charged as inciting rebellion. The world will start to fall apart, the apocalypse will begin , and fire will commence its consumption of the earth.

On that happy note, I will introduce the most important message in this passage, the reasoning behind it.

Thinking about the mysteries of life’s end could drive you insane. Sure, this is going to happen, but it IS going to happen. Obsessing over the end of life and the end of the world just makes it worse, even unbearable. In the end all that really matters is that you lived life, and that you lived it well. Que Cera Cera. That means that “Whatever will be, will be.” It means leave matters that are out of your hands, out of your hands. Let fate unfold and be ready when it does. We all need to just chill, absorb the vibes of the Irie spirit, and LET IT BE. Most importantly we must make damn sure that the juice is worth the squeeze.

Intrinsically psychedelic. A modern mandala for post-apocalyptic transcension.

                Which came first, the chicken or the egg? This age old question has sparked much discussion and debate between philosophers and great minds throughout history. Sometimes compared to the debate between religion and science; this question truly represents the standstill battle between the irresistible force (feelings), and the immovable object (logical fact). In essence, this question causes a fiery rift between opinionated boors who believe it is a battle of wits betwixt Darwinism and Absolutism. It is the search for answers within the rules of establishment when the only real answer is existentialism.

                According to human nature, Man fears that which he does not know. Look around the world; think about different cultures and their creation myths. Your thought is that they are ridiculous and your religion is the only right answer! But don’t you think that is what they are saying? Now don’t take this as me discounting religion or professing atheism, but really there is no single answer as to ‘why.’ There is and always will be an argument for both sides. Religious folk say “we have our holy books, we have our faith, we are right.” Evolutionists say “we have our science, we have our facts, we are right.” In all honesty I don’t think we should waste our life and energy, fighting a perpetual battle over who is right and who is wrong.

                As stated before, man fears that which he does not know, so he makes up ridiculous explanations so he can understand ‘How?’ and ‘Why?’ when really all he does is make things more complicated. A lot of the time, “human logic” just isn’t enough, and some things are truly beyond human comprehension and understanding. Going back to the chicken and the egg, who gives a shit? Chickens are here, isn’t that enough? People grasp at straws to come up with the craziest, most asinine solutions, claiming that lizards’ DNA mutated, and that mutation spread to make chickens. Or that a pterodactyl mated with a raptor to form a chicken which later developed feathers as a birth defect. It is a pathetic attempt to control the uncontrollable and exert an imaginary form of power over ones surrounding. But this attempt is futile as it is coupled with a bland and mechanical outlook on the world. This forces you to be incapable of seeing the beauty of life because you are just too busy breaking down everything into a mechanical and vague, disconnected level.

Reflecting on all previous statements, I have a proposed explanation that will make the whole world happier. Quit worrying about the stupid, worthless “life questions” that don’t make any difference to anybody. Don’t waste your life away trying to control things that are above our human plane, and just enjoy the ride of life.

In closing, here is my proposed answer to the chicken egg question, I ask you to contemplate this and fit it into your perceptive schema: A circle is endless yet has no beginning.

On Life:

Man does not weave the web of life. He is simply a strand within it. What man does to the web, he does to himself.

On death:

Don’t stand by my grave and weep, for I am not there, I did not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamonds glint on snow.
I am the sunlighht on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumns rain.
Don’t stand by my grave and cry; I am not htere, I did not die.